Livre d'Or

I was pointed here by a friend because I'm in a similar space of experiencing things. I don't not identify with my female sense of gender or my female body, I do very much. But I also experience wishing I could spend time in different gendered body shapes and can strongly envision living my awesome life but moving from shape to shape as fit my internal sense of self. I find not that I have a weak sense of gender internally, but instead that I have an extremely strong sense of self, and that my need to be true to that sense of self is greater than my need to go in any particular direction with gender. I am also aware that I will be unlikely to have any issues of presentation or pronouns, though if I weren't 30 ish years into using female pronouns I'd probably prefer gender neutral ones, tbh, perhaps that is something that will change... I am unsure.

This is a recent experience of several things just 'clicking' and adding up all at once to an unexpected picture where I am not as cisgendered as I think I am. But also, I do not live in the future with magic science and so I'm fortunate also to be able to live with some form of acceptance of my current space and shape, even if I miss knowing the shape of my life lived in different shaped bodies and exploring those space within myself and with my loves. My experience is one of moving between mentally and emotionally, but having only one physical setting. I am focusing on it as a limitation of science and technology, not a lack in me, presently.

(hopefully this is on topic and you don't mind my joining in...)