So today has gone nicely to heck

[liv]

I'm mildly ill with a cold, and as a result I've been predictably slow and stupid all day. But it's combined somehow with whatever was wrong with my chest and now my lungs are really painful to the point that it's distracting. I was trying to figure out if I needed medical attention and if so how to obtain such, given that I have been procrastinating on actually registering with a GP since I moved. And I got caught up in a triage system which can't properly distinguish between pain which happens to be localized to my chest, and, you know, chest pain. So I've ended up with an urgent care appointment at quarter to midnight tonight. I'm really hoping that because it's an appointment I'll actually get seen, and it seems better than hanging around all night in A&E, as well as hopefully a better use of resources because I'm pretty sure I don't need to be hospitalized. If I get yelled at for turning up at urgent care with a bad cold, so be it.

Of course in the middle of this I've landed myself in some DW drama, where I managed to give someone I respect the impression that I was mocking her for a completely imaginary social justice fail. I have apologized, not that that ever does any good. Goodness knows that if I thought someone was hunting around for any possible allusions to anything less that perfectly social justice-y in every off the cuff comment I make in order to feel superior to me, I'd be pretty annoyed myself and likely not willing to hear an apology. But I do wish I could find a way to communicate that avoids giving that kind of impression, it's not the first time either. I don't actually think of myself as a particularly good ally or SJW, and I'm certainly not trying to look better than others. (This is something I should think about when I'm not tired, stressed and in pain, obviously.)

I would cry, except I strongly suspect that crying will make my painful lungs feel even worse.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Lots of love. Hope you feel better after this appointment

[angelofthenorth]

That was me

[rmc28]

*hugs*

I'm sure the doctors will be fine, and they'll know the limitations of the system better than you've already found :-)

I hope it's easily fixed, whatever is wrong.

[liv]

Thank you, knowing that you're thinking of me and sending love helps a lot.

[liv]

Yeah, I know, most doctors are almost unfailingly polite with people who end up triaged to the wrong place by inadequate systems. I do wish we hadn't replaced NHS Direct with the extremely obviously worse symptom checker and 111, but there you go.

[redbird]

My doctor seemed entirely okay with my coming with what turned out to be acid reflux after I called their office and said something like "I have chest pains. Can you fit me in, or should I go to the emergency room?"

[rysmiel]

..so that would be where you are now. I am sorry it got this severe and I really hope you can get helpful attention soon, and I will be thinking of you and wishing you well. *hug*

[green_knight]

I hope that everything goes smoothly and that you'll feel much better in the morning!

[hatam_soferet]

All the love, badger badger. I'm glad it's turned out to be not something dreadfully scary.

[sonia]

Hoping for best outcome both with your cold and pain-in-your-chest, and also with the communication issues. May your words be received with compassion!

[forestofglory]

*tea*

[ofearthandstars]

Oh, dear, that sounds like a very rough time. I hope it all works out, physically and emotionally.

[monanotlisa]

Urgh, what a miserable moment. Thinking of you and wishing you good luck with that chest pain. <3

[jack]

*hugs* *hugs* *hugs* Woke up to check election results. I hope you're not still up unable to sleep, but if you are, thinking of you. (And I hope you're not worried, but if you are, ok to ring landline and wake me up if you need someone to hold your virtual hand.)

[lilysea]

Gah. That all sounds really rough. :(

Hope things get easier and more cope-able soon.

[lilacsigil]

Hope you're feeling a lot better soon.

[falena]

*hugs*

[atreic]

*hugs*

[silveradept]

We hope for relief in all your suffering and pain - preferably the relief that comes with the problem going away or getting resolved.